I dont know what to do. I have literally 3 people left in my life, and I may be fucking it up with the most important one. I feel awful about all that happened tonight. But you can’t just change how you feel ya know? Oh well. Maybe I should try to reconnect with old faces or something to pass the time. I’ll figure it out, I always do. It’s like Nick always said to me, no one can adapt like me…..
I just don’t get why they can’t see it, and I’m always the bad guy. I feel like every good trait all my friends ever saw in me, and that you did once too, you’re completely blind to now. Have you forgotten who I am? What I believe in? What I fight for? My mother says I’m right about what’s to come….I don’t want to be right. In fact I’ve never wanted to be more wrong in my life.
Maybe I should get friendlier with my coworkers? There’s a new group of people to hang with.
I’m tired. I need to sleep.
48 hours….
